Friday, November 06, 2009

God wants you to know ... that pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
Pain is the reaction of the body, and as long as you have the body, some pain is inevitable. Suffering is the contraction of the mind, and unlike pain, is optional. Don't add suffering to pain, - relax your mind and the suffering will pass.

 

teehee
my monkey made a surprise appearance this morning 8)
im so touched. and i didnt want to let go of that hug..
last 3days left for the start of the battle.
im still unsure. im still not confident.
but i noe in this storm, God will be with me.
and it will be over soon
i cant wait !
cant wait to hang out everyday
cant wait for movies, cant wait for drinks, cant wait to work, cant wait for a vacation, cant wait for the inter-college-intra-clique grad day date lol

  Thursday, November 05, 2009

when you're at ur weakest God is the strongest.
may God use me to reveal His powerful works in my life.
i've drifted far, but i know it's not gna be hard to turn back.
for even the impossible may be done through Him.

have no idea why recently there's some kinda intriguing feeling in me.
i dont know if it's the right word to use
i've started to truly appreciate things around me.
not that i've neva cherish those but im so easily warmed recently lol
yes all the little things that ppl arnd me does. im so grateful
my father cooks what i like for dinner for me often; knows i eat walnuts and rmb to replenish the stock at home etc
it may mean nth much but i feel so warm after eating
yang yang came out to study with me. spur me on.
and the words of encouragement on fb from frens. im touched by ur concerns (:
4 days without seeing baby.. and more to come. i feel so silly each time i smile to myself after reading his msg. i miss him
and wat he called me today. i suddenly feel loved.
there's nth more in life that's more impt than having ppl arnd who care

  Wednesday, November 04, 2009

err it's back to the prelim mood again
the long edurance
at least prelims' 22 days..
'A's.. i didnt dare to count and when i did.. it's 5 weeks inclusive of this
tday i broke down again. i hate to be stuck in a situation where i have absolutely no freedom to choose at all
the worst is.. things are so draggy they're draining me
i dont think i'll be happy on 3rd dec.
i imagine myself to hear "you're dismissed" and knock down the moment i stood up from my seat
my last breath would be, "im finally done."
im done with forcing myself to do sth within my responsibility that's against my will.
i suck at stress management. i guess
i'll try my best. im sorry i made the ppl around me worry, sorry for being so weak.
xm will pull herself up. there's no time for grudges now.

  Monday, November 02, 2009

it's down to the lat 100m. but i dont feel like chiong-ing
i got no drive to.
slacking and procrastinating is a viscious cycle.

of course, those calls kept me on (:
yea since i've sacrifice my time with baby i shld make gd use of it.

  Tuesday, October 06, 2009

each time things happen i learn sth new.
and im kinda glad that this happened bcos i seem to understand more abt you and this relationship
the kinda assurance after a while of questioning really feels great (:

counting down. last two days of sch yay
but what's revoking is the gp mock test on mon..
wat's with it man
as if it will realli improve ur grades.. lame shit

very disappointed with prelim results.
none of the subj was up to my expectations.
i noe i didnt study as hard but the mistakes made werent due to that reason

  Sunday, October 04, 2009

red alert..
i think
i sense.
i hope everything's fine
i will make everything fine
just bite and bear with it
it'll be all right xm

i miss twin :/
come back soon

had a big cry today.
since ehh i forgot when's the last time
it's still insufficient.
i think crying is just like getting drunk
both ease the miserable feeling temporarily
i created the trouble
i let it prevail
and i hope to end it
damn just... argh
im such a lousy girl(f)

  Thursday, October 01, 2009

i feel so lousy.
i wna get pissed get angry but i cant bring myself to.
damn it
waiting and not knowing wat someone wants is such a sucky feeling
well i guess i'll just trust my feeling nxt time and harbour no hope
what you didnt expect will then become a bonus when it happens yea twin ?
haha
hopefully self-consolation works

i feel so dumb